You can only create to the edge of what your self image will allow.

Most of us, whether we realize it or not, teach what we’ve learned. When I started Crazy Blonde Life, I also started down a spiritual path, and at the time, did not realize what was happening (for me). This blog, gave me a purpose at a time in my life when I felt very confused and helpless over my life situation. It gave me an identity. When you work at anything for long enough, you inevitably learn.

Over the course of the past 5 or 6 years, I’ve learned numerous things from consistently blogging. Other than the technical knowledge…I’ve learned that women (people) crave community. I’ve learned that everyone is searching for something although many don’t even realize they are searching. I’ve learned that everyone has a story to tell and I’ve also learned how healing it can be to share those stories!

My blogging journey began by looking at other blogs. Most of the bloggers I was drawn to were younger than me and I was fascinated by the things they were talking about. I remember one blog would list “5 things” each day. The 5 things were anything from things purchased to 5 things to be grateful for to 5 activities…or a combination. I decided to list my “5 things” every morning. At the time, my five things were written in a journal and were just for me. I guess that was when I began to journal. My journal entries got longer and longer and after a while, I decided to try my hand at blogging.

My blog began as a mixture of food and fashion and gradually, I began to share my life. These sharing posts seemed to resonate, so I shared more. It was very healing for me to write about the things that were weighing on my heart and also to read the comments that women left. I realized that I was not alone and sharing felt really good, although, at times it was hard to push the publish button because I was putting myself out there in a big way.

One thing led to another and as I began my deep delve into spirituality, my life started to get better. I gradually gained confidence and learned so much. I decided to share some of what I was learning, and how my life was changing as a result. The seed was planted for me to write my Journey of Becoming program.

I am continually pushing the edge of what I’m learning. Some days, it isn’t easy. I’ve made a big commitment to myself, the women who read this blog and the women who have joined my program. I want to show up as my best self and that resolve is pushing me to continue to learn more and grow personally. As my self image improves, which is what happens when you feel proud of what you’ve accomplished, my edge gets steeper and it becomes even more important for me to be the best version of myself.

There are days I don’t want to sit down and write because I’m out of things to say. Those are the days when it’s most important for me to sit in meditation because I profoundly believe the answers I’m searching for can be found in stillness. It’s really funny how, on the days when I really don’t want to write…but sit down anyway… the words just flow out of me.

At times, the doubt still creeps in. It feels as if I’m sharing too much or as if I’m not really qualified to share what I’ve learned. These doubts have pushed me to take a course to become a life coach (it begins next week). I’m also becoming a certified meditation teacher and there are many other ways I want to push my edge. We teach what we learn and when we teach from a pure heart and share our stories, we learn even more!

When I woke up this morning, I was feeling a little down (there is so much going on in my life). My prayer as I came out of my meditation was to have flow in my day, to accomplish what needed to be accomplished, to stay focused, and to be kind to myself. This was one of those mornings I really felt that I had nothing to say! What usually ends up happening is that I journal myself into a better place and I’m so grateful to have this forum to do so! It is my sincere wish that these posts serve you in some way and you can find golden nuggets of wisdom to apply to your life!

Speaking of pushing the edge…there are those that don’t care for distressed denim, and I am clearly not one of them! I’ve always loved to add a little edge to my wardrobe and these jeans are an example of that! I purchased the blazer from Zara last season and thought it was perfect paired with these jeans and a pair of sky high platform sandals! If the jeans aren’t your thing, you could, of course add any pair of pants that make you happy. This is such a simple outfit and one of my favorites so far this spring!

I would love if you left me a comment…let me know how you’re pushing your edge. What are you learning about yourself and as a result, what are you teaching? Are you inspired to keep growing or are you feeling somewhat stuck right now and if so, why?

If these questions feel like too much, let me know if you like my jeans!

As always, I can’t even express how much I appreciate each and every person who reads Crazy Blonde Life! I’m so passionate about this blog and my programs and I feel so fortunate to have you all in my life! Thank you!